Thoughts and Notes, 1991

 
"Deep within my heart’s memory is a child named Eva. In the corner crib, with great effort, an infant was trying to raise her head and shoulders off the surface of the bed. Her soft smile was a warm welcome as our eyes met. Then, I saw her incredibly thin arms as her tiny hands moved towards her mouth. Her body stiffened as Karleen gently lifted her out of her bed. I cannot recall ever seeing the use of such rigidity to compensate for lack of muscle tone.
In disbelief, I asked her age, “Eva is fourteen months old.” I took my turn rocking her side-to-side, holding her little head against my shoulder. Her body began to soften, molding itself against mine; both of us grateful for even this one brief encounter. Last night, unable to fall back to sleep, I angrily asked, Why aren’t those babies being fed?” The answer came slowly, “They are being fed, but there is no one to hold them, no one to love them. These are the ones who fail to thrive. You feared seeing these little ones, but they are the reason you came. And if you were to return, they are the ones that would bring you back to Romania .”  - Carolyn, Pediatric Nurse

"They (two Christian doctors) are well trained, but hampered by shortages of medications and modern technology. There are only two CT scan x-ray machines in the whole country (1992)! Upon returning home, I have the tendency to look at all we have through their eyes, and I am saddened and humbled…it doesn’t seem fair. However, the ultimate hope for all of us is in Christ and this hope is growing in Romania like a healthy tree. We added a leaf or two."      -David, M.D.

"Playing guitar and piano is second nature to me. However, to play while looking into eyes that hold nothing but innocent wonder…it was one of the most profound and humbling experiences of my life.
One day, I had the opportunity to engage a specific child for a considerable period of time. This had been impossible with him until he engrossed himself in my music. Staring nose to nose, he held my face in his hands. Although there was a language barrier, a connection was made. Afterward, he came up to me… and again held my face in his hands. He said something to me in Romanian and walked away. I turned to the translator who had a look of total astonishment. She translated his words, 'You have made me very happy today.' He was nine years old and this was his first sentence."   - Dan, Musician

"One seminar (to orphanage staff) seemed absolutely on target. At first, the staff seemed unresponsive. Within minutes, however, they were asking and describing games they played. In reality, this was an animated group of caring people. The director told us that the boys were crazy and incurable, but by the end of the seminar even he seemed to have some hope."    Pat, Occupational Therapist